If I die in my sleep, are you still willing to be everything you promised you'd be?

No comments to reply, damn fucking sad. :(


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That's the animation I made the other day, along with another that I made just for my lloves. Rounded edges was what I learnt from Jasminek, that sweetie. I do learn something new everyday, do I? (:

My voice became your passion, your love became my obsession. It's sweet, yet dangerous, just how you wanted it to be. <3<3<3.

I got awoken up this morning by tutor's phone call 'cos I took the study's phone into the room. It was ringing ever so loudly, why wouldn't it wake me up? What's more when it's two phones ringing at the same time with different sharp ringing tones. But I refused to get up to answer it, knowing that it's from her. Maid came in to answer it instead. [: Lazed around in bed, texted _ & all. Finally decide to get outta bed @ 10am. The sleep was good, no disturbance until morning when Zel was going for her Jap class. It's been long since I slept so soundly, I'm sure. (:

Oh I forgot to mention, I could hardly breathe at times recently. :/ Which kinda scare me. I need make a trip down to the polyclinic& get an inhaler before anything happen, just in case. I hate such breathless night, especially when I'm without you. And that kinda explain the often heard & said sentence "I can't breathe without you". I guess that's rather true, for me.

Breakfast was great (: Thanks to Zel, the surprise McMuffin without Egg. [: With the red sticker which says "Special Order". :D Trigger happy. Lazed around in the study. Packed my stuff, it is still as messy, I know. Got out my sciences books & notes. Man, there's so much to study, really. I must endure another few more sleepless nights of studying, understanding, writing endless notes & memorising. Right so while I'm typing this, there're birds flying around the window which is just next me. I'm afraid it might fly in & peck on my head. Ouch. What wonderful imagination dya have, Glyn. I wanna be able to sleep well at night, not worrying for someone & my studies. :/ I'll be a complete geek (inserts geek emotion) 'til Ns are over then it's time to party !! -dances around

Dad talked to me just now. He asked what's the criteria for Ns. So I explained to him. & he asked if I can pass four subjects. It's an obviousss no. Look, six subject I do; English, Maths, Chinese, Comb. Science, Comb. Humans & Art. I'm pretty sure I'd pass English, hopefully Maths would too, it'd be a miracle if I can pass my Chinese, I need to work very hard for my Sciences in order to pass, Imma' fail Com. Humans for sure, Art is unpredictable. & the reason why dad asked all these is bcause... "If you can pass four subjects ah, okay, I'll get you a laptop. All yours, I can't stop you from using it." That was his exact words. Fuckadoodeldee! They know this would definitely motivate me for sure, for sure!! Fuckfuckfuck. I seriously think I'll study ultra hard for my Ns this time. Goddddddddd. :D

Tuition was good. Tutor asked about ___ again. :/ That was the first thing she said to me after I closed the door. Ohwell. So we did Maths, in preparation for my paper II which I doubt I'll pass this time for Prelims. Heh I've got the laptop as motivation now. Gosh. Tuition was good, did a quite a few questions.

Cherilyn came before that, getting all ready to go for NDP preview. They were singing karaoke in the room while I was having tuition la & I was wondering who the fuck is singing. Hahah! Dad sent them there while I stayed home to clean up my study room. Helped my maid to prepare dinner! :D Got the lettuce sliced & the luncheon meat diced! You see, I can be in the kitchen too. I'm gonna help her fry the eggs later :D:D Hopefully I don't screw it up & I do not burn the kitchen. :/

I love Theresa, my UOYEVOLI twinnie. [: She's so loveeeeee, seriously! Hugs& kisses. Hons, you've got me for all time & babe, you know I do love you! I'm always here okay? You've got a piece of me with you.

I realised something & it's definitely something I hate to admit to. When you left, you took the biggest part of me with you. & I guess that's why even 'til right now, I still can feel where you are, what you're doing, whether you're doing well, whether you need someone to be there. This sixth sense that I have for you, did not die. I'm sorry if you find this freaky but it's true. I suppose I'll never be able to feel this way with anyone else.

Tell me there is more to this than meets the eye, just tell me you & I aren't gonna be another lie, baby. I love you. <3!

Same sentence as I said in last Saturday's post.
I love you Saturday, I found peace & joy in you. (:

Tell me I'm wrong when I say, I can't expect you to spend forever with me.
<3.

12:18 PM
Mend this broken thing./
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